metalthingies

when ppl at work don't finish the job and pawn it off on you. *my other job*

and I hate Jorge at CalMed he is a fucking idiot... all of his PT paper work is incomplete *grounds for termination* that dumb ass... and he never does his shift duties... me and Mike are sick of doing our shift duties because that ass never does his and we end up cleaing his fucking mess

it is so fucking irritating! if not infuriating!

and Jorge is so fucking irritating and arrogant... every time we come back to station... this stupid smirk on his face makes me want to kick the living shit out of him... he acts like we are fucking up... he needs to go back to EMT school and learn how to fucking do the job and learn how to fucking do his Damned paperwork... *evedentally he does not know how to CYA and correct and complete paper work is CYA*

fuck I'm tired going home at lunch...


and on a lighter note today is the 2yr anniversary of me adopting my kittie sasha ^_^

1) I did not make it into Daniel Freeman UCLA Paramedic school. 40 applicants 15 seats available.(the others reserved for Fire only *coughbullshitcough*

2) Started my second job with a new two week old ambulance company CalMed I work 24hr shifts every 3 days so about twice a week. *then on the weekdays when I get off work I go to my other job working for my familys shop*

3) I forgot what 3 was for........

4) OH and wierdness I have been ring checked approx 5x this mo. ??? *strange*

5) My cousin Natalie is in town she came in the day before thanks giving from Sao Paulo. She is currently applying and interviewing at Stanford and Berkley to start her doctorates program in Law. *she really wants to get into Stanford I pray she gets in*
Natalie will be here untill Febuary :)

6) Met a few paramedics in Norco at Rodeo Burger *it's the yummi!* and they suggested I go to Craften or this other school for paramedicine to escape the confines of use of my paramedic *soon to be* education with out the restrictions of LA and Orange Countys.
*I shall be applying to craften*

7) I have no idea of how I am awake and at work this morning *my other job* after running a 24.

8) physical therapy is going well progress is being made and I just ordered a balance ball chair from Gaiam it should be here tomorrow. *it's part of my PT to strengthen my core so sit while I'm at work and get stronger and do my PT exercises simmutaniously! neat*

9) and my 27th birthday is slowly closing in on me.... ughhhh...........

10) I guess this concludes my update

made me sick....

all kinds of bull shit is going on and politicians are not focused on the right thing.

Fuck congress and the president!

fuck the Health bill focus on the BULL SHIT that happened at Fort Hood!

Excited Nervous Wreck = Me

tomorrow at 1600hrs. is my paramedic school interview.
got all new references as they still did not get two of them via mail. (POST OFFICE = FAIL) or (References = Fail)

have my suit pressed and ready have my shoes (new! along with the suit) it is properly altered and fitted. :)

got a clean manicure and a nice pedicure (one solid color no flower, have to be plain and neat)

tomorrows agenda get a passport photo and nylons (peep toe shoes clean solid color pedicure with peep toe pumps still needs nylons)

print out a few copy's of my updated resume and get there early


soooo nervous!!!!!!!!!!

I picked up my suit and it looks amazing eeeeee! nervous

Got the E-mail yesterday I have my paramedic school interview on teusday!

tomorrow I am going to pick up my new suit. and it will be freshly pressed and fitted. =)

have to get a pedi and mani so I look clean neat ect....

I am so nervous!

drivin out tomorrow for some extra work on a movie hrmmm .... not sure where yet... not happy about driving in the weather my house is in shambles and the remodeling should start tomorrow..... ick i hope it is over with fast

my house is starting to be remodeled woot!

a stalker

told this guy strait up what was up...
now he won't leave me the fuck alone...
I told him multiple times he does not fucking get it
now I am just ignoring all phone call's and txt's this guy is really asking for it
Lord knows how I'll deliver

>.<

I am buying a taser
(God only knows if I'll ever have to use it)

so this guy kenny really has been pushing it to the point I want to beat him with a stick

he keeps calling and txting me and I have told him countless times I DO NOT WANT A RELATIONSHIP

for the love of GOD! why wont he get it?

I rather just have friends.

I don't want sex I don't want a relationship.

why don't people understand this?

I am being direct and stating it like it is why are they too fucking stupid to understand? and why oh why do they try so fucking hard. even try guilt tripping me seriously WTF???

What is with all these guys I am meeting?

they all want something serious and I don't want anything more than to date multiple ppl and have no commitments
WTF?

I don't want a boyfriend I don't want a relationship

I just want to get into school and live my life.

I swear I'm only 26 and have older guys hitting on me WTF? I flirt and they take it all fucking seriously. and I am horribly mean and sarcastic when I flirt. Jesus what is wrong with these guys?

I swear I am meeting some real choice boys lately.

when am I gonna meet a real man?
I'm sick of these lily pansy assed douches

I am blunt and strait up they just don't get it

name: Kenny

so let's see what happens. he is great dance partner

but my mind and life is geared toward Paramedic school I hope I get in

and still I must move ya I just moved recently into my grandparents new home (my house) but my heart is not here. I want to be in the country in a small town. I am really that unhappy here.

sad I should be thrilled and should want to stay but my heart is not here.

a temporary fix for the now to get me through school ect...


oh ya and Fish moved out ... did not even pick up the dog shit, did not clean his old room, drank all my beer and soda, some weird reason I almost all my flat wear is missing, my sofa smells, and I am overwhelmed with joy.


I cant wait till all gets back to clean and happy.

mostly I can't wait to find out if I passed the entrance exam for medic schoool

just did my entrance exam for paramedic school

I know I did well on reading comprehension and the EMT test the math was the hardest part all those fractions ick!

I hope I did ok nervous!

my life has drastically improved.

I am much happier now than I have been for a while

I am done with everything that used to drag me down tho I used to consider it all fun but in all reality it was nothing but a waste of time, energy and everything else.

I don't give a damn about the "scene" I don't give a rats ass about most people I know.

but there are some people I do give a damn about.


So suck it

this little girl's gone back to country

and I'm gone come Thursday.

goin out gonna fish and have a good time and continue the grind to becoming a paramedic.

ovarian cyst.

I get to see my dr. on monday.


still going on my fishing trip too.

it hurts ....

last night I went out and had a good night

had a whiskey sour and danced a bit played a round of pool and was taken on a ride on a harley


got back to the club and that guy named Blue left.


so here I was having a coors light and sittin' around got asked to dance by this one individual. I don't really remember his name. we danced kinda but then I started feeling weird... I asked him if we could play a round of pool.

started feeling a bit odder. and it was not the copenhagen.

the place closed down he walked me to my car. and I started to feel even worse... I started vomiting and chummed the parking lot. at this point in time I am vary dizzy and disorientated I was just a mess. he asked if I needed a ride home I said no. vomited some more. and said I was fine to drive *all this time I was noting how suspicious and weird he was acting half thinking to call for an ambulance or go to the ER but didn't*

So off I went I drove as far as my old apt. and parked in a well lit area of the target parking lot... He followed me. I was completely fucked up and only had two drinks. the last one was the spiked one. I had my windows cracked and made sure that my doors were locked. he got out of his car and approached my driver door. he asked again if I was ok and needed a ride. I said no and that my roommate was coming to get me. *note I was also playing with my phone so it was visible in hand also possibly helped me get out of that nasty situation* then he left. I passed out in my car *this was after I got a hold of Fish*

out of nowhere here is Fish knocking on my door. I kinda wake up stumbled out my door sick as fuck... and lock up and he drove me home. I am still feeling a bit off and i disorientated. I was drugged. and I handled it well for the most part I stayed protected in my car.

so girls please play it safe know your limits on drinks don't go out to get trashed.

I had no intention of drinking myself stupid. and look what I noticed and did my best to avoid getting hurt.

be aware of what is around you note funky activity and be cautious. always have a phone on you and when in doubt keep a emergency contact close by. the minute you start feeling funny. get help. It could save you.

I need me some more of that cowboy romance.

when I hitched a ride in his 4 wheel drive in the middle of the night
up a dirt road on your way tward a romantic night

he asked if he could kiss me
I sayed maybe

he leaned on over with his hand on my face and we kissed

it got a little hot n' heated but oh sooo nice

his friends knocking at his door and we gathered out side

drinkin' coors and talkin' shit

at the ol' hot springs.

he took me by the hand and we walked down to next spring

when we got there things heated up and we got stripped down
*no not yet lol*

we went skinny dippin in the hot springs

drinkin' beer and cuddlin' up watchin the stars up above you could see that milky way so bright with falling stars everywhere

hear the cattle moo'in away, hear the cyotes scavenge their prey

all in the middle of the night.

we went walkin' back to his truck half way dressed and bare footed trudging though the mud and them sharp rocks up the trail back to his truck

then things got heated in his truck. *no not yet*

now here we were driving half nude down the dirt road in his 4x4. got to his place where we finished the night.

that is the end of my cowboy night.

;)

BTW: once you go cowboy you'll never go back

I had a good trip caught 3 fish. one was a keeper. the other was a brown trout nice size I let him go. the other ate my worm and got snagged on my hook a little 5inch fish i let him go as he was ok.

met some Marines at the bar we hung out shot pool and drank beer.

I met a ranch hand and he showed me the best night of my life! I love country boys!



the day I left I cried. I am in love with that town. Leaving that town is like having your heart broken. I want to move there get a job, fish, and live.

I hate the city. I hate it all so much.

oh yea I picked up an old bad habit again. :)~

Copenhagen makes me feel so good. Copenhagen the way I know it should.

I would gladly throw my life away here just to go and work as a medic and live in a small town. I don't need half of what I have. I just need a roof a bed a job and my fishing tackle and my ugly sticks. and I can lead a wonderful life.

I am going to go back in a few weeks. I just do hope I can see that farm hand again he was fun.